Decisions, decisions, decisions

There are many decisions to be made in life. Every day you decide when to get up, what to eat for breakfast, and what clothing to wear. Other decisions are more important. Such as how to spend your money or what to do with your time. Most of my life, these decisions had a very little impact on those around me. 

However, once married, they have a greater impact. There are now two of you with different opinions. The decision of either one has an effect on the other and their family. 

So, how do we make decisions together when we have different opinions?

When discussing how LDS Church councils are run, President Stephen L. Richards said, “men can get together with seemingly divergent views and far different backgrounds, and under the operation of that spirit, by counseling together, they can arrive in an accord, and that accord … represents the wisdom of the council, acting under the Spirit” (quoted in Counseling with our Councils, by M. Russel Ballard, p. 44). I think the key here is that they come with the Spirit and with love for each other. 

“The Spirit puts the testimony of truth in our hearts, which unifies those who share that testimony. The Spirit of God never generates contention.” (Henry B. Eyring, “That We May Be One,” General Conference, April 1998) That same Spirit helps us discuss items of importance “by persuasion, by long-suffering, by gentleness and meekness, and my love unfeigned” (D&C 121:41). 

Our decision making is not a competition of who is right and who is wrong. It is not a scoreboard for who gets their way. Our decisions must be made with unity. We must both agree and feel at peace with the decision.

“A unity which comes to a family or to a people softened by the Spirit will bring great power. … A man and his wife learn to be one by using their similarities to understand each other and their differences to complement each other in serving one another and those around them.” (Henry B. Eyring, “That We May Be One,” General Conference, April 1998)

We need to remember that we are working toward the same goal. We can work together to achieve those dreams.

Fidelity

Growing up in the LDS church, we are taught the law of chastity from a young age. We are taught “the sacred powers of procreation are to be employed only between man and woman, lawfully wedded as husband and wife” (The Family: A Proclamation to the World). This means abstinence before marriage and complete fidelity in marriage. 

I think most people understand what it means to obey the law of chastity when you are single. But what about when you are married? What exactly does fidelity mean?

Fidelity is faithfulness to a person demonstrated by continuing loyalty and support. 

Fidelity is more than just not having sex with someone other than your spouse. D&C 42:22-23 reads, “Thou shalt love thy wife with all thy heart, and shalt cleave unto her and none else. And he that looketh upon a woman to lust after her shall deny the faith, and shall not have the Spirit."

President Ezra Taft Benson said, “What does it mean to love someone with all your heart? It means to love with all your emotional feelings and with all your devotion.” (“To the Fathers in Israel,” Ensign, Nov. 1987)

President Spencer W. Kimball said, “The words none else eliminate everyone and everything. The spouse then becomes preeminent in the life of the husband or wife, and neither social life nor occupational life nor political life nor any other interest nor person nor thing shall ever take precedence over the companion spouse.” (Faith Precedes the Miracle, 142–43.)

“Fidelity includes refraining from physical contact—but that is not all. Fidelity also means complete commitment, trust, and respect between husband and wife. Inappropriate interactions with another person can erode fidelity.” (Kenneth W. Matheson, “Fidelity in Marriage,” Ensign, Sep. 2009)

I remember early in my marriage, I often turned to my mother for support, for advice, and to talk about my day. My husband was busy working and going to graduate school. I felt I wasn’t getting enough time, so I turned to my mother for companionship and support. This did not improve our marriage. Those simple conversations with my mother quickly turned into complaints and nitpicking of my spouse. What I thought was meeting my needs (someone to talk to) was causing a separation in my marriage. I was not being respectful of my husband in my conversations with others. I was not being loyal to him and not fostering peace in our relationship. 

Now, we turn toward each other for companionship and support. It not always easy. I usually have a lot to say and he is not naturally inclined to listen. But we work it out. We try to be transparent to each other in all our doings, especially regarding conversations with the opposite sex. This has fostered loyalty, trust, and peace in our marriage. Maybe those words are not romantic, but they create a firm foundation. 

Charity

This week we have finished reading two books on marriage: The Seven Principles for Making Marriage Work by John M. Gottman and Drawing Heaven into Your Marriage by H. Wallace Goddard. Both books are very valuable and well worth reading.

Why are there so many books about marriage? President Spencer W. Kimball said:

There must be something else then that makes marriages successful. The truth is marriage requires work. President Gordon B. Hinckley said: 

The problem is, there are many different opinions on what makes a marriage work.

I think the most important thing I’ve learned is that I need charity. Charity is the pure love of Christ. Goddard broke charity down into three parts: love from Christ, love for Christ, and love like Christ. First, we all receive love from Christ. We can feel that love as we realize and ponder the miracle of His Atonement for us. Second, “we love him, because he first loved us” (1 John 4:19). We instinctively love Him in return when we feel the love that He has for us. Then, we try to love as Christ does. “That ye love one another; as I have loved you” (John 13:34).

Loving as Christ loves is not an easy task. It requires loving ourselves, our spouse, our family, and everyone else with the same purity as Christ.

How do we even begin to possess this pure love of Christ? First, it is a choice. We must choose to look for the good in others (and ourselves). Then we must “pray unto the Father with all the energy of heart, that ye may be filled with this love, which he hath bestowed upon all who are true followers of his Son, Jesus Christ” (Moroni 7:48). Specifically, President Henry B. Eyring said:

When we pray for this love we will be blessed to see the good in our spouse. We will be blessed to have our own love grow. With that foundation of love, we can be more forgiving of ourselves and our spouse. 

Forgiveness in Marriage

We are not perfect beings. We all make mistakes. Sometimes, we repeat the same mistakes over and over again. Usually, we are very aware of our own weaknesses. I know what things I need to work on. I am trying to do better. I know I am not perfect. I also know that I am not going to become perfect anytime soon.

But what about my spouse? I have to admit it is easy for me to get upset when he does something wrong. I seem to have a hard time forgetting past mistakes. I don’t usually think about those past mistakes on a daily basis. But when one of them is repeated (and I am inclined to be upset) all of a sudden every past instance is brought to my mind in clear details. It is as if I have some secret card catalog tucked away in my brain. Once that card catalog is triggered, all the cards come spilling out at once.

This is not a recipe for a happy, healthy marriage. This is no way to treat my spouse. If I had truly forgiven him of past mistakes, then why am I holding on to this card catalog in my mind?

President James E. Faust said, “We need to recognize and acknowledge angry feelings. It will take humility to do this, but if we will get on our knees and ask Heavenly Father for a feeling of forgiveness, He will help us.” (“The Healing Power of Forgiveness,” General Conference, April 2007). He continued, “The Savior has offered to all of us a precious peace through His Atonement, but this can come only as we are willing to cast out negative feelings of anger, spite, or revenge.”

It is only through the Atonement of Jesus Christ that I can let go of the hurt I feel inside. He has the power to heal. This concept is beautifully illustrated in the book, The Peacegiver: How Christ Offers to Heal Our Hearts and Homes by James L. Ferrell. I read it several years ago. I think it is time to read it again. I want to cleanse and purify my heart. I want to be healed by my Savior's love. I want to see my husband as he truly is --a son of God with the potential for perfection. Just like me.

Make a Change

We love to watch movies. I find movies much more enjoyable watching them with my husband because he gets really into them. Laughing out loud at home or in the theater. One movie that is especially fun to watch with him is The Lego Batman Movie. So much funnier with him around.

The movie starts out with a quote from Michael Jackson, that is changed be credited to Batman. 

This comes from Michael Jackson’s song “Man in the Mirror.” The song goes on to say, “I’m starting with the man in the mirror, I’m asking him to change his ways.” In essence, Michael Jackson realized that the best way to make the world better was to make a change within himself, the man in the mirror.

In marriage, it is far too easy to pick out the faults in our spouse. We are “inclined to love [ourselves] and fix others. God has asked up to do the opposite. We are to fix ourselves by repenting, and to love others.” This reminded me of the verses found in Matthew 7:3-5:

“And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother’s eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye? Or how wilt thou say to thy brother, Let me pull out the mote out of thine eye; and, behold, a beam is in thine own eye? Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast out the mote out of thy brother’s eye.”

The truth of the matter is, no one is perfect. No one. Instead of focusing on the imperfections of our spouse, we should be focusing on our own. We don’t have the power to change our spouse. We can’t make them stop doing anything. But we do have the power to change ourselves. We can make a change in our own lives.

It isn’t easy. It takes an honest self-inspection. Recognizing our own weaknesses requires letting go of pride. Then, it takes humility and repentance to be willing to change. Some things in our lives may be very hard to change. In his book Drawing Heaven into Your Marriage, Goddard mentioned the repentance paradox. “In order to be saved, we must stop trying to save ourselves by our own power. We must turn ourselves over to Christ completely” (Goddard, 73). We must throw ourselves completely on the merits and mercy of Jesus Christ. “When we trust God enough to turn our lives over to Him, He does miracles” (Goddard, 75).

I was reminded this week of how much I need the Savior. I don’t have the power to make all the changes I need to. But, if I give my heart and my will to the Savior, He can create something far better than I could ever imagine.

(“Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing” by Robert Robinson)